Questions!!!

This is a part of my post written earlier. Was reading through my old posts and this particular bit from an old post struck me. I am re-posting the text with a few additions to the original piece:

"True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will Not be."
Of course i do agree with what has been written in the sentence above. True love is to accept the other person as he/she is, accept the other person for what he/she is, accept the persons past, mistakes, and blunders. What really matters is that person and you, your present with him/her, and your future with him/her. But, how easy is it to accept that will NOT be? When you know that the person you love will never be yours how easy is it to accept the fact? When you know the person you have loved the most in your life will leave never to return. Can you avoid the heartbreak and the heartache? If it is best to let go, then why is it the most painful thing to do? When love is accepting what will Not be why is it the hardest thing to do? Not that life stops, it doesn't we all have learned our lessons of moving on, but that moment you have to move on is the longest and heartrending.

Sometimes you DO NOT want to let go, you DO NOT want to accept that which will NOT be. You want to hold on with all your might like you are fighting for your life. It is said that if you really really want something very badly keep trying and you will get it. But, you know no matter how hard you try things will not go the way you want them to.

Isn't hope all that we have, no matter how openly glaring is the truth right in front of our eyes, we shut our eyes and guard them against the glare. We hope that Maybe, Maybe our souls will be saved by the one we love and he/she will be here to stay never to go away...

I guess i am keeping that hope alive somewhere deep down inside, though i know there is no hope at all, but, such is life...

But, today I do not have hopes, I have let go, I know that my hopes have no meaning. These will never be fulfilled. I know that in life you have to keep up the fight, but fight against what and who, someone you love but that person does not want you...
Hahaha! I laugh at my stupidity and my ignorance i mock myself for being such a duck...I hoped against hope for something so bad but no matter what i do it will never be had... I have no more faith, no hope, I have no life left...My soul will not be saved, I am a lost case... :)
Try Try as i may i will not succeed...That is the truth that i need to accept and recede...

Colourless...

I wonder if my life will ever be what i thought it would be...
With the struggles manifold i am growing old
The reasons to live, the zeal to give, everything is lost
Colourless and drab, only full of ash
Darkness complete, with no light to see
Living a misery completing the degree
The degree of life to be gotten at death
My schooling is over with nothing more to read
Life my teacher has abandoned me
Leaving me at a blind curve
I may want to carry on from here
But i choose to wither and perish
Rather than pick up the pieces and stitch them together
I am a loser you must say
A loser to be what I am
I think this will be it
I'v lost my chance...