The Unknown

The fangs are deep within my skin. No! they have reached my bones.
I am as numb as i could be and i dont feel the pain anymore.
The reasons to live are far fetched and the reasons to go on like fairy tales.
I build up these castles in the air everyday, just to keep my soul alive.
Dreams are all that i have and they are temporary, never stay on
They abandon my thoughts and leave me alone with no one but despair.

I know that despair is my only friend, the pain is unbearable but i am so so numb.
I cant yell, i cant cry; the reasons i dont know why
I am looking for answers but dont know the questions
I live my life to be no one, i am around and yet not there.
I love to laugh but pay the price,
I see time slip by and i sit still coz iv lost my sanity
Im insane and yet so sane
I am a sinner and yet so pure
I hate my existence and i still keep living
I am a loser but i never give up
I need to break free and i stay put where i am
I am alone, and it shall be that ways.
I am waiting endlessly, but for what i have no clue.
I guess i'll keep waiting for the unknown till eternity.......

Thank You Gals!

I made an effort to start blogging but failed miserably. I was extremely bad at updating my blog. Do not remember my password and nor the silly question that I had marked to help me recover my password. Well I did not bother much about it anyhow until one day.
It was only a few days ago that I read a mail sent to me by Akash and it mentioned Richa putting up a post and picture of Aki (Akash) with his sweetheart Mich (Michelle.) The good news was that Aki and Mich are to tie the knot in October a reason for all of us to celebrate.

I went onto read Richa’s post on Aki (Akash) n Mich (Michelle) and this simple gesture of hers moved me deeply. I went on reading a few other posts by Richa. The one post that she had written for her dad on his birthday was another post that touched a chord somewhere in my heart. This was the time when I remembered Sayan (Sayantani) who always coaxed me to start blogging. So I started blogging but never with the faith that I can get to break the habit of being procrastinated and write religiously. So, here is another full hearted attempt to start afresh and start blogging. I would thank both Sayan and Richa. Sayan because I am so in love with the way she writes and have been very open about being a fan of hers. Sayan, because it was she in the first place who inspired me to start blogging and write. Richa, because your posts have given me the much needed impetus and boost to start blogging again. I dedicate this first post of mine to both awesome girls I know. So girls wish me luck and this post here is to let you know how in your own ways you have touched my life.