For You!!!

Zindagi jeena seekha hai tumse
khul kar hasna seekha hai tumnse
tum se hi toh khushi hai saari
tumhi se zindagi humari
tumhi ho meri muskurahat, jaan bhi tumhi ho...
tumhi hi ho meri dhadkhan, aur imaan bhi tumhi ho...

Tum!!!

Tum aye ho meri zindagi mein rango ki bauchar bankey,
Tum se hi din shuru hota hai aur tum hi pe aakar khatam,
Tumhara naam lekar soti hun aur tumharey khayal lekar jaagti hun,
Tum hi tum ho har taraf, har jagah....

Tum ho toh main bhi hun tumhare bina main kuch bhi nahi
Tumse milkar zindagi muskurayi hai, phir se khilkhilayi hai,
Tum hi meri zindagi ka maqsad aur tum hi har iraada,
Tumne mujhe gehrayion se kheench key bahar nikala,
Tumne mujhe phir se jeena sikhaya, ik naya rasta dikhaya....

Tum hi ho chahat meri, tum hi merey dost ho
Tum ho meri zindagi aur tum hi ho meri har duaa,
Tumhare saath har safar teh karna hai
tumhare sang hi chalna hai, tumhare sang hi marna hai....

Zindagi ho Tum meri, har saans mein sirf tum ho basey
Aisa kab huya humain bhi nahi maloom!!!
Kab tum ek dost se mere sab kuch ban gaye!!!
Tum ho meri jaan, tum hi meri zindagi
Tum hi ho meri har khushi, tum hi meri har khwaish,
Tum hi ho meri justju, tum hi meri har azmayish,
Tum hi ho har raah ki manzil, tum hi meri manzil ki raah....

Tum hi ho rang, tum hi khusbu,
Tum hi ho har pal mere saath,
Tum hi mujh se durr bhi
Tum hi meri subah, tum hi meri sehar,
Tum hi ho har lamha, aur tum hi har pehar
Tum hi ho meri chahat
Tum hi khuda ki inaayat
Tum hi mera sukh, tum hi meri riwayat
Tum se hai har din, tum se hi har raat
Tum hi meri aankhon mein, tum hi mere jazbaat....

Tum bas tum aur sirf tum.........................

Liberated/Redeemed

Liberated I feel after letting go
how long could i hold on to regret and woe.
I know the time has come to cut loose the noose
I need to let go off the agony and the brutal bruise
I need to break free from the pain and agony.

I need to walk beyond the yesteryears
to break away from the shackles of the past
to clear away the cobwebs of memories.
I need to fill my soul with the warmth of the sun
to thaw away the coldness and fight away the numbness.
I need to bring back feelings to lighten up my life
I want the colours to blossom and the spring to clean my mind.
I need the morning freshness and the joy back in my life
I have to be a fighter and not a coward in disguise.

I lost a lot to thinking and shouldering all the blame
the burden was too heavy for me to sustain.
I started sinking under the weight of my loss
never once did i try to blame anyone at all.

Some came and made it wonderful
Some made me hurt like hell
Some made me feel like i was the worst person in the whole wide world.
But, I am liberated off the burdens and have no one to blame
I have just forgiven one and all because i cannot be them and they cannot be me.
We all are different people caught up in our own regimes.

When the heart is full of darkness and you have no way to walk
your inner spirit leaves you and you walk about lost.
You lose yourself to self doubt, and feel your journey has come to an end.
But, somewhere deep within, you know you haven't reached your goals as yet.
You know you have lost it all, but you cling on to that one last straw with all your might.
You know deep down within your heart that this last straw may bring some respite.
This for sure is the toughest time of ones life.
But you have got to hold on tight, because around the corner is the shining light, it will guide you to a new day and a new way,
That is when you know for sure that you have been redeemed.

How often have you lied? How often have your lies cost you everything or next to everything in your life? How big a crime is it to lie? Sometimes, don't you wish for something with all you have? And, when that wish of yours is granted what do you do? Sometimes when you have what you wished for and you fear you will lose it, Will you lie out of that fear so that you do not lose your precious belonging? Lying is that you are keeping the truth from someone...Have you never lied? Will you never lie? Are you always honest? Do you think it is fair to look into the reason, the very reason a person lied? The intention of the person does it not matter? How heavily will you punish someone if you find out you have been lied to? What will you do if you lied and what will you do if someone else lied to you? Will you turn your back towards someone you hold near and dear because that person lied to you? Does a lie end a relationship? Should you hold up the other person for the lie without considering the circumstances?


If you havent lied ever, be hated to be lied to...
If you havent tried ever, then spurn the other person for trying...
If you havent wished and hoped for something, then look down upon someone who did...
If someone gives you importance so much of importance that he/she forgets about ones own existence do you think it is worth giving this someone a chance?
If someone has loved you will all his/her heart and soul is a lie good enough to break away all ties?
Is a lie a reason good enough to punish someone to such an extent that the person isn't able to come out of it ever?


Questions I have been battling with for sometime now...They keep coming back to me every now and then...The trumoil doesnt seem to stop...My head is a boiling pot...mixes of all kinds, flavors of various thoughts, essence of various ideas, and recipes of various doubts are present all the time...The mind refuses to cool down...

Random Shayari...

Zindagi mein gham aur bhi hai mohabbat ke siwa...
Humain toh raas na ayi, na sahi, usko woh sab mile jiski usne tamanna ki hai.
Waqt na tha tera, na hi mera
Soch ke hasil toh humne kuch kabhi kiya nahi hai
Zindagi mein thokar kha kha kar sambhle hain
Doosro ko sambhalain yeh hi karna accha hoga
Tu aur tera gham, main aur mera gham saathi hain, humdard hain, aur humsafar bhi
Aa mil baant ke gham kuch halke kar lain
Chalna toh tujhe bhi hai mujhe bhi...

Questions!!!

This is a part of my post written earlier. Was reading through my old posts and this particular bit from an old post struck me. I am re-posting the text with a few additions to the original piece:

"True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will Not be."
Of course i do agree with what has been written in the sentence above. True love is to accept the other person as he/she is, accept the other person for what he/she is, accept the persons past, mistakes, and blunders. What really matters is that person and you, your present with him/her, and your future with him/her. But, how easy is it to accept that will NOT be? When you know that the person you love will never be yours how easy is it to accept the fact? When you know the person you have loved the most in your life will leave never to return. Can you avoid the heartbreak and the heartache? If it is best to let go, then why is it the most painful thing to do? When love is accepting what will Not be why is it the hardest thing to do? Not that life stops, it doesn't we all have learned our lessons of moving on, but that moment you have to move on is the longest and heartrending.

Sometimes you DO NOT want to let go, you DO NOT want to accept that which will NOT be. You want to hold on with all your might like you are fighting for your life. It is said that if you really really want something very badly keep trying and you will get it. But, you know no matter how hard you try things will not go the way you want them to.

Isn't hope all that we have, no matter how openly glaring is the truth right in front of our eyes, we shut our eyes and guard them against the glare. We hope that Maybe, Maybe our souls will be saved by the one we love and he/she will be here to stay never to go away...

I guess i am keeping that hope alive somewhere deep down inside, though i know there is no hope at all, but, such is life...

But, today I do not have hopes, I have let go, I know that my hopes have no meaning. These will never be fulfilled. I know that in life you have to keep up the fight, but fight against what and who, someone you love but that person does not want you...
Hahaha! I laugh at my stupidity and my ignorance i mock myself for being such a duck...I hoped against hope for something so bad but no matter what i do it will never be had... I have no more faith, no hope, I have no life left...My soul will not be saved, I am a lost case... :)
Try Try as i may i will not succeed...That is the truth that i need to accept and recede...

Colourless...

I wonder if my life will ever be what i thought it would be...
With the struggles manifold i am growing old
The reasons to live, the zeal to give, everything is lost
Colourless and drab, only full of ash
Darkness complete, with no light to see
Living a misery completing the degree
The degree of life to be gotten at death
My schooling is over with nothing more to read
Life my teacher has abandoned me
Leaving me at a blind curve
I may want to carry on from here
But i choose to wither and perish
Rather than pick up the pieces and stitch them together
I am a loser you must say
A loser to be what I am
I think this will be it
I'v lost my chance...